Where did these emotions comes from?

OK... yes, I'm pregnant.  With that comes a flood of emotions never quite seen before by myself or my husband.  But when I'm the one feeling like I'm getting a little too emotionally needy for my husband to handle, it must be pretty bad. 

I cry about everything and anything.  What's worse... it feels good.  I get these little sinus headaches if I hold in tears.  It's painful and makes me feel worse.  So here I am feeling all emotional and I want to cry about everything that I just let it out instead of holding it in.

But my husband doesn't like it when I cry, so he tries to make me laugh or say things to cheer me up.  This is so sweet and endearing.  He is doing everything in his power to make me feel loved and beautiful and happy during this emotionally trying time.  He is amazing!  Which also makes me cry... out of happiness.  Then he just hugs me real tight and tells me to knock it off.

I wish that I could control this.  It's pretty annoying.  At first, it was just sad movie scenes that made me cry uncontrollably.  Well... not even really sad ones.  I cried at the end of Twilight the last time I watched it.  For gosh sakes people, Bella was so worried that Edward would leave her in the hospital.  How could you not feel for her?

So if any of you have any suggestions on how I can control these waterworks, please let me know.  I'm running out of kleenex people!

There's something in the air...

I had a moment today... one of those moments where you feel a spark in the air and the hair on your arms stands on end.  It's that feeling of the holidays coming upon us.  I look around and see the leaves changing colors and floating to the ground.  The air is cool and crisp, just a little bit of bite so you know you need a coat.  In the early morning hours there is that sparkly layer of frost on the ground that warns us of winter on its way.

I love this time of year.  It seems to be the only time of year when people are truly and genuinely nice to one another.  We all get this bug that infects us with love and compassion and kindness.  People hold doors open for each other, and wave pedestrians across the crosswalk, and smile at passerby on the sidewalk.  This doesn't happen year round, although that would be nice.  

Holiday shopping begins and families are out and about celebrating and traipsing through the snow to peer in windows at beautiful decorations and listen to carolers.  I realize we haven't even celebrated Thanksgiving yet, but if you walk into Walmart right now you will be overun by Christmas decorations.  The sales are beginning and stores are preparing for the infamous Black Friday.  Department stores are already running continuous tracks of holiday music over their loudspeakers. 

I love walking through the mall, passing gift wrapping stations, and seeing kids bounce with excitement.  I love being in the crowded lines waiting to purchase my well-planned and thought out gifts.  I love spending an hour picking out gift wrap and bags and bows and ribbon.  I love decorating the tree and then sitting with my husband on the couch to take it all in.  I love watching him shake his head when I drag out all of the gifts that have to be wrapped and then obsessively wrap them as perfect as possible, only to watch them be ripped open weeks later.  I love the smell of the pretty holiday candles that we will burn for the next two months.

And I love that I can feel the excitement in the air that everyone else is feeling right now!